[FONT=Courier][SIZE=7][COLOR=red]I woke for a very short period today, just long enough to realize that all that training I had done to level was zapped from me. It would seem that Balthy has been at it again. I don't know rather to cry or laugh at the moment. All I could manage to do was pull out this book and write, shaking my heads, trying to hold back the tears. When ya are so close to levelin like I was, it's hard not to feel discouraged. I know I'll continue the fight, that's all that is left in me these days, but I'm beginnin to wonder what for. I do love these lands and the few close friends I have been fortunate enough to make. Other than that ... what's the point? I do realize it'll keep me out of trouble ... maybe that's all I can ask for at the moment. Although at times, trouble seems to find me even when I ain't lookin for it, just like what happened ... Ahh well, back to the trainin later on.[/FONT][/SIZE][/COLOR]

[FONT=Courier][SIZE=7][COLOR=red]If one feels at home in the shadows, will the shadows ever lie to them? I think not. That is why I love them so much. You can always count on the shadows to always be there for you and nothing to bother you. They will also no betray you or shame you in any form. The shadows are my home, that is where I will stay. One must not be afraid of them to be able to reach me. One must be comfortable with themselves before being able to come into them, to enter the world that is my home. If one is not comfortable with them, the shadows will know and they can start to play tricks on your mind. You must be confident in all you do before venturing through their long, reaching arms .... [/FONT][/COLOR][/SIZE]